There are people who fall in love, get married, find their dream house, and then have children. This is a very tidy way of going about things.
There are other people who tape the edges of the walls before they paint, so as to create a nice clean line. There are even those people who do not even need tape, because they know how to make a nicely beaded edge. Somehow or another, they use their steady hands and their rock solid concentration to make a perfectly straight and tidy line of paint.
I, on the other hand, just painted a wall with my child standing on my feet. She wanted to be up on the chair with me, and frankly, I wanted her there. My two year old is a constant source of joy. Everything is more fun with her, even when it seems a little crazy. Yes, I made sure we were on a sturdy chair and we are both strong with really good senses of balance. Now, the walls are bright orange and yellow. The edges sort of blur into each other and there are lots of drips.
I am happy that orderly and tidy people exist. Really, I am. The world needs a force to counteract the chaos that I bring. While sometimes I feel pangs of jealousy, often, I am just really glad that some people can consistently find matching socks and a hair brush. It is an inspiration.
My life has not been orderly.
I am a free lance tutor and teacher. I am a responsible adult and I left a responsible job so that I could live the life that I wanted to live, and I did it in a messy and unpredictable economy. Sometimes, things are messy, and not in order, and there you are, walking confidently into the unknown, sure that something good is going to happen, though with no clear ideas as to what those things are going to be.
Since finding WizIQ Virtual Classroom and starting my own business, life is changing in huge and unpredictable ways. I used to have a regular job- it was even a great job- but it had become ho-hum and routine. I knew what I would be doing each day and there was little chance of a big adventure. Now, I am planning to take my kid to Nicaragua this winter. It is all moving. Even we are moving, right now. The moving truck went last week, and my car is full of all of the leftover stuff.
I am no longer encumbered by the physical reality of a specific location. I am also no longer bogged down with a daily or weekly time schedule. I get to be with my kid when she is cheerful and awake. I get to have a long weekend every weekend.
This is not to say that I haven’t spent many nights up way too late planning my online classes. Learning to teach online is a skill set that I am still learning. It takes me longer to plan a great class now than it will in two years. But it is a manageable skill set, with a sharp learning curve. It is already easier than it was two months ago.
Order is for the orderly. The predictable people can have 9-5 lives with a steady income and a regular schedule. They can have neatly painted walls with tidy edges. I just don’t want it. Free lance online teaching opens up unimaginable opportunities.